Why do I feel like this (take up space to have enough characters)?

I have a huge crush on my best friend, and it makes me feel like crap. Mostly cause she keeps talking to me about all the guys she likes. "OOO I LIKE CURTIS" "OOO I LIKE JAY" "OOO I LIKE THAT NAMELESS DOOD FROM RITA'S ITALIAN ICE". But I'm practially in love with her, so I just sit there and listen. How do I deal with this.